I want to make a little clarification.
As many of you know, the past few months have been a complete roller coaster for me.
Happy one minute, sad the next.
Angry. Defeated. Confused. Panic.
Emotionless all together.
I’ve felt it all.
And depending on the day, my post may or may not reflect my mood.
I always try to speak from my heart, sometimes too much so.
I’ve gotten a few emails regarding where I am at.
From the beginning of this blog, I painted this picture as having a happy little family.
Then it crumbled.
I went from 100% confident in my decision, to not confident at all.
What happened?
The truth is, I am not sure.
I feel like a rag doll being thrown in a million different directions.
As of late, I feel like an unwilling passenger along for a CRAZY ride.
I do not want to share time with my daughter. I do not want to be a single mom. I do not want my daughter to grow up in a broken home. I do not want to spend thousands of dollars on legal fees.
But this is my reality.
I have a lot of work to do on myself, and only time will explain the purpose for this season.
On my darker days (and darn it they’ve been plentiful lately), I try really hard to remind myself of what I DO have.
I am healthy. My daughter is healthy. We have a roof over our head and food to eat. We have transportation.
We have the world at our fingertips.
And most importantly, we have HIM on our side.
For now, I am so grateful for your love and support and riding this journey with me.
THIS is therapy.
Oh and listening to this FEEL GOOD song gives me a little pep in my step.
Hang in there friend! Wishing plenty of sunny days ahead of you and Landyn soon!
I love that song:) I know the roller coaster of emotions. It’s tough, sending you big hugs! If you don’t mind me asking, what was the cause of your divorce?
Hi Lindsay! I stopped by your blog to say thank you so much for linking up on Friday for my ‘week in photos’ link up party. I hope you will come back every week! On a different note when I checked out your blog I found this post and I want you to know that if you never need to talk or write or anything feel free to contact me. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I feel like you are a strong person and you believe in living life to the fullest and perhaps you already know the way to do that in your heart. Follow your heart and do what is best for you and your sweet daughter!! I’ll be thinking and praying for you and I can’t wait to get to know you better!
Alli XOXO
big hugs to you! stay strong! you are brave and strong and amazing. and you are not alone! xoxo
Although I’m not in the exact same situation you are in, I completely understand your roller coaster of emotions. I just lost my husband to a heart attack, but the emotions are similar. I’m sending you a BIG hug because I think we both need one. And I love that quote at the end of your post!
Keep your head up girl! You are AWESOME!! XOXO!!! <3
So many hugs for you, girl. Hope you find some clarity and peace in your life.
Yuck….those are tough feelings. I remember feeling like a failure one minute and relieved and free the next. It is a hard journey to go through divorce, especially when children are involved. This weekend we had a young boy speak at our church who just lost his eye sight and he said something I loved….”our set backs are usually God’s set ups” and I am sure that is what is going on here….He is setting you and your daughter up for something great. Just keep on keeping on.
You hit the nail on the head with that quote, and I know He will come through for you! God always has a master plan if we look to him to show us. Hang in there friend! Big hug!
Oh lady.
I know sharing your daughter is rough. I can’t imagine. I hope those dark days grow slim, soon.
Hang in there. You’re a good momma and your home is not broken.
You are strong, smart, caring, loving, compassionate and down right truly wonderful human being. Everything is going is gonna be all right now. Put on some Bob Marley and go for a drive. =)) XOXOXOXO
Aww, I’m so sorry for what you are going through! I’ll be thinking about you and your girl and praying for you guys. You are right, you do have Him, and He is ultimately what will get you through all this. I hope you can begin to find some sort of balance soon, I know what it’s like for emotions to be all over the place, and you get to the point that you’re feeling so much that you end up not being able to feel at all. Everything will work itself out.
Oh Lindsay, my heart aches for you! But I know you are strong. I just read a quote recently that is very fitting…. “What seems to you like a pointless or even painful ‘waiting room’ may be God’s most productive workroom.” (quote by Holly Furtick)
hugs!!! Bri
It will get better!!!
aww, well I’m all ears for you, Lindsay.
always so refreshing….your honestly linds. love you girl
Hold your head up high! Know that you are doing the very best with the cards you have been dealt. Always thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers!
Hang on. From the looks of things, you are young,and healthy and have TIME to sort things out. No one I think wants to come from a “broken” home, but it cuts so much when you are the parent and feel the responsibility on some level for when this happens to your child(ren). But homes can be very broken without being divorced,and the consequences can oftentimes be very great for all involved. Be patient and hopeful.