top: Ali & Kris, necklace: Imperfectly Perfect, jeans: Paige Denim, heels: Miz Mooz, bag: Gucci, watch: Michael Kors
Photos c/o Love Letter Photography
Has something ever hit you upside the head like a ton of bricks?
{figuratively, not literally}
All of a sudden you have that ahh moment and that missing piece suddenly is found.
Well it happened to me.
I was in San Francisco late last month, sitting in on a regional training for this amazing company I am a part of. I sat there with my best business casual attire, pen to paper, an open mind, completely open to where ever it was I was being led. And I listened. I learned. I was inspired.
And then it spoke to me. That missing piece that I so desperately was searching for, was found.
“Get out of your own way, Lindsay”.
You see, I have this tendency to self sabotage myself and hold myself back from greatness. I have been struggling with this my entire life.
There is this little voice in my head that is holding me back. It’s these concepts that are keeping me from stepping it up to the next level. I am afraid to fail, so I play it safe.
“So what if I really do this, and fail miserably”? I would never live it down.
So often, we blame others when we fail. We look at all possible root causes, when more times then not, the problem is staring at us back in the mirror. In our fast paced society, it’s so easy to act first and think later. We are programed to crave temporary satisfaction. The long term results seem to far off and unreachable.
I’ve spent a good majority of time focusing my energy onto things completely out of my control. I’ve been worrying about matters, and the outcome delivers itself no different. I have been littering my time with things that do not matter in the scheme of life. Rather than focusing on purpose, happiness, and my goals, I’ve been drowning in negativity.
So where am I at with this?
I am a work in progress. I am realizing where my troubles lie. I am fine tuning into why I get in my own way. I am learning to step back and not let others have so much power over me. I am gaining the confidence to stand alone and own my life.
Do you struggle with self defeating habits? I would love to hear your stories.
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Love these colors on you Lindsay! And couldn’t agree more:) Proud of you!
I couldn’t agree more, written so beautifully!
Halz
LOVE this outfit and color. And love the way you describe it. I wish I could write like you do, but that is not something I was graced with.
My defeating habit, is to push people away when I get too close and out of my comfort zone. For me, this is how I learned to cope with not having a family growing up and why I didn’t have a mom around. You don’t get close, you don’t get hurt. It’s was hard and lonely growing up this way because all we ever wanted was to make a friend and have loved ones around me that showed how much they really loved me. I actually didn’t realize I do this, till my hubby told me and refused to let me go. Lucky for me, he never gave up on me. It’s hard to work through your defeating habit because a lot of time, we don’t see or realize that we are doing it. We must take a step back and see how and why we are doing it, in order to work through it. To this day, I still push people away (but I am able to put myself out there with making new friends, meeting new people), but my few close friends and hubby don’t let me. I My family found me. They always tell me, ” your stuck with us.” This always makes me laugh because during my trial (a hard point in my early 20′s) I was able to make lifelong connects when it had eluded before. God has a plan for us all, even if we don’t see or understand it. His plan for me was to make life connections with people who became family to me, but it order to appreciate and keep it,this I had to go through all I did with pushing people away.
Wow! this sounds so much like me!!
Your words could be mine… every single word!!!
I spent all my life been myself biggest enemy… spent my life thinking that I’m not goog enough,
not smart enough, not beautiful enough, not perfect enough…
always had this fear for failure so I never get the risk to follow my dreams… and now what?
I’m stock here, tryin to find my way out…
thanks for sharin, I really needed to “hear” this words today!!!
ila
ps: sorry for my bad english
i do exactly the same thing. it’s so hard to not want to control everything, and to not focus on the things that you can’t control. you’re so right that we need to focus on the positive and try to move forward instead of sitting with the negative. thanks for the inspiration!
I love the two toned necklace with that shirt – such a gorgeous combo! And ya know… when we think about it we all having pretty blessed lives… go for what you want girl – you are a beautiful girl!
XO
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