We are ENGAGED!!

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My week took a VERY unexpected turn.

Thursday afternoon, Josh took me to lunch in Malibu where our story first began. The spot of our first date, where we shared our first kiss. He got down on one knee, got as sappy as I’ve ever seen him, and with four words, gave me my happily ever after. I knew from the first time we met, he was different from the rest, and with time proved that our gut doesn’t lie.

Josh is my forever and I am so excited to announce that we are ENGAGED!!

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The past 4 days have been a complete whirlwind. Life has come to a hault as I let it all sink in. I’m soaking up every feeling, every touch, every word of love and encouragement. I am on a high and I never want it to end.

 I’m engaged to a man that makes me a better version of myself. A man that stretches me to be better, challenges me, loves me unconditionally, and most importantly loves my daughter like his own.

I came across this post today, when I first introduced you to Josh, and my words couldn’t be more spot on from the start:

“I’ll never forget our first date…The minute our eyes met as I walked towards him standing up against his truck to greet me. The smile he flashed me. Our first hug and me realizing how attractive 6’3″ is. The smell of his cologne. The black peacoat he wore to impress me with his sense of style that I haven’t seen since. Him opening the car door for me, and every door there after. Effortless conversation. The way he made me laugh. The way he looked at me. The way his hand fit perfectly in mine. Our first kiss”.

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I’m on cloud nine.

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Landyn came home from a week away at her Dad’s and Josh and I knew exactly how we wanted to share the news with her. Josh gifted her with a special pearl necklace and asked her permission to marry “Mommy”. She of course answered with “YES, I want a sister”. She followed it up with a “Joshy is the best, we love him” and the biggest hug and kiss her little body could give him. My heart became mush and just like that, the past 5 years became clear as day.

It feels so good to be in it for the right reasons. To do things the way I always envisioned for my life. I get the opportunity to have my Dad walk me down the aisle for the first time and ball my eyes out as we have our father/daughter dance. To have my best friends and my sister as my bridesmaids and dress shop with my Mom. To be surrounded by 100 of our closest friends and family as we promise each other ‘till death do us part. And to have my baby girl by my side through it all. It feels good.

I’ve waited a long time for this and I am thanking GOD for the detour life gave me. I finally got it right.

Thank you all for your love and encouragement across the social media board this past weekend. We have read every single comment and from the bottom of our hearts, thank you.

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Let the wedding planning begin!!!

I love you Josh Baltimore. I can’t wait to become your wife.

Lindsay

We celebrate halves…

It’s no secret that Landyn and I love this guy…

So we will celebrate this man any chance we get.

Today is Josh and I’s year and a half “dating anniversary”, so I had to write a little something…

(because halves deserve to be celebrated) 

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 Thank you for being the reason I smile and treating my baby girl like your own. How lucky she is to have you as her example. You are my rock, my encouragement, and always believe in my crazy dreams.

Something tells me I’m going to love you forever.

xo

Lindsay

Lindsay

How Yoga Changed my Life

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I’m not a gym going kind of girl. Besides hearing the phrase “it goes by so fast”, one of the phrases I hear quite often as a Mom is “how do you stay so fit”. I always smile graciously and credit it to living a healthy lifestyle, but for me personally I think it comes down to genes. Thanks Mom and Dad. I enjoy my sweets and I drink entirely too much Diet Pepsi. Hey, I’m working on it.

With that being said, I am not out trying to loose weight. Sure I’d love to tone and there is ALWAYS room for improvement, but the gym is practically torture for me. I’ve learned over the past few months though, that breathing and exercise are two of the best ways to combat anxiety. I remembering rolling my eyes and expecting some sort of quick fix when my therapist told me that for the first time. I wondered why I came into her office each week not seeing improvement… I wasn’t doing my part.

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I noticed a friend of mine going to YogaWorks near my house, so I started to do some research. The more I investigated, the more I realized that Yoga was EXACTLY what I needed. Meditation, relaxation, getting in touch with your inner self, working on strength and balance, staying committed to myself, and most importantly, breathing.

I went down to the studio and signed up immediately. It’s been a game changer you guys. With the hustle and bustle of everyday life, taking time out of my day to meditate and do some deep breathing was just not in my cards. I needed to be put in that zen like atmosphere where it was practically forced for me to get to that place. When I walk in that studio, I am able to close the door on the stresses of the outside world and just focus on me. It’s therapy.

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The world isn’t easy. We are all fighting a hard battle. No matter where your struggles lie, know that there is something out there to help combat it. I have felt so alone in my anxiety for YEARS, but the more I find ways to work through it, the more I learn about myself in the process. I know what works for me and what doesn’t. I know the big things to avoid and the little ones too. I am more opt to speak my mind and deal with problems as they arise which has been huge for me. I started making a gratitude journal that I write in daily of all the things I am thankful for. Positive self thoughts make all the difference. I even got Landyn involved in yoga. My yoga studio has family yoga where your kids come and learn the fundamentals. Landyn busts out the downward dog position like its her job. Had I known at a young age how to really BREATHE, a lot of my anxiety would have been alleviated. A calm mommy is a calm child. It’s SO important. If you can’t get into a Yoga studio, do breathing exercises at home. Watch uTube videos, get a group of friends together and form your own group at the park. Work with what you have.

I tell you this because I believe there needs to be more knowledge on natural ways to combat anxious feelings. I am a work in progress and still have anxious days, but I take them as they come. It’s a one day at a time deal. Take them as they come.

Are there any other Yogi’s out there? I would love to hear from you.

 

Lindsay

A DAYCATION AT THE FOUR SEASONS

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It’s no secret that I walk around like a chicken with my head cut off most days. For some reason, I tend to make decisions that make my life even more complicated than it already is. Like deciding to keep Landyn in preschool near our old home in Agoura Hills this year, and commuting 30 minutes to and 30 minutes from school 5 days a week. It’s draining. Especially when you are a work from home entrepreneur and have to make Barnes and Noble your remote office 5 days a week. Not to mention all the lifestyle stresses of being a single mom, dealing with Landyn’s dad living an hour and a half away, building a life with a guy that makes me a better person with each passing day, trying to keep up with a house that is much larger than I am used to, etc etc. Case in point, finding time for “me” is far and few between. It’s no wonder my anxiety is through the roof most days.

A couple weeks ago, I walked out to my car to take Landyn to school and found a gift bag sitting on the top of my car. Mind you, it was a day before Josh’s birthday and HE should have been the one getting surprises on his car. I opened it up and found a gift card to the Four Seasons Westlake. I asked him what it was for and he responded with “just because”… “you are stressed and I want you to go get a massage and relax”. Dream boat right?

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So relax I did. I planned a day with one of my good friends last Friday and we made it a point to turn off our phones, ignore all responsibility and guilt, and just soak it up for the ENTIRE day. It was heaven on earth you guys. If you are in the LA area, the Four Seasons is the place to go. I have a hard time doing things for me lately. I usually spend the whole time combating the voices in my head that are telling me I don’t deserve such things. But I am learning to kick the negativity in the face and do whatever it takes to be happy.

Some pictures from our day….

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Now go have a relaxing weekend.

xo

Lindsay